好想你。。。

I miss u...好想你。。。想你，想念当我遇到困难时，第一时间就要找你诉苦，但，一经不可能了。你已消失在人海里。好想念你的肩旁，你的背后，总让我想哭，或大哭时，当我的避风港，连衣服每次都湿了，你还是会轻轻顺着我的头说，傻猪，哭什么，有我在，我疼你就好啊。。。好想念这句话，我就是你的傻猪，被你遗忘的傻猪。。。

我真的很差吗？真的那么难沟通吗？为什么连你，最了解我的人，我也无法表达，家人每次也是这样。。。我真的很失败和无助。。。连你也抛弃我了。。。我。。。我。。。我真的不行了。。。我好痛苦哦！！！我不知道什么时候我又会想做傻事。。。去寻找在另一个世界的你，你会等我吧？我要去的时候，你也会牵着我的手把我抱紧怀里吗？我昨晚梦见我睡在你的怀里，你轻轻的，摸摸我的头，我们没说什么，只是那股温暖，好熟悉，无比的温暖，但起来了，觉得好难过，好空虚。。。我真的好想你！！！

1 year Ady

Finally i create a blog, as a channel to voice out.....after a year time, at least i hav some courage to touch some event n i just feel wanna talk. Bout it to let me feel better.

Y is choose today? The reason is last year, date 23.april.2012 i got sms from her(wil mark as CC in future) ask for break up, to end our relationship, which lasts for 2 years and 6.5 months..

I hav many question y she wanna break up? Cos even though we are having long distance relationship, due to our job, bt y so sudden? She onli told me she wanna break up, then when i ask, she say she dun wish to mention, just i too dote her, too respect what her want, cos onli with me, she can ask for what she really want..so i nvr force to get the answer even i wonder everyday n nite in tears.